Fortunately, as an adult i can play the game of possibilities. I can remember how I was treated as a child and come up with many different explanations for what those interactions meant. What happened to me could mean:
- My parents were living through their own unhealed childhood wounds and that is what drove their actions.
- If my parents had worked with Morty Lefkoe and really put in the effort required to eliminate permanent beleifs, their concepts of self, the world and their children would have drastically transformed which would have changed their behaviors and how they interacted with me. As a result, I would have most likely concluded something else about me.
- Maybe they didn’t want “me”, but they truly have not idea who I am, so it’s impossible that “” can be unwanted or unloved by them or anyone else.
- Maybe they were just stressed out a lot when I was a child?
- Maybe there were things going on that I could not understand?
- Maybe they were not skillful as parents?
- Maybe I’m not the brightest kid in the history of kids (very likely) so my conclusions are merely expressions of the limits of my intelligence? (I love this one)
I can come up with countless possibilities all day to explain what I remember from my childhood because I can never be certain as to why what happened occurred. I think all I can be sure of are the events…which is also fishy. Either way, I know I did feel for sure that “unwanted” and “unlovable” were adjectives that described me perfectly. Wow, what a waste of time right?